5.40pm on a Saturday evening and here i am blogging in OFFICE!!! Die ah... now i know why they call it a 2nd home... so it is and here i am... not for work though but to do some studying. exams are on 2nd December and i've not even touched the rim of reading materials i'm supposed to complete. HOW HOW HOW???
Apart from all this, life hasn't been all that fruitful to me... waking up everyday has become a chore and a task to discover what i am going to achieve on that day. gone are those worryless days where ppl need only to attend school at prescribed timeslots... so so much happening in my life of late, the job woes, money, love... i call it my 3 aspects of life... of which NONE i repeat NONE of it has been favourable. what have i done?? really what did i do wrong to achieve such a painful start to my adult life? All my life i've been looking at the start of my career, the day i start earning money and prove to the world how successful i can be.
Yet today, all i got is a saleman job at a miser bank who underpays us, a career path offered that i have no interest in pursuing, spending more than i could possibly earn, failing terribly in my job scope(s), and a woman who ditched me and left me in pieces. what a perfect start to my working adult life right? I mean if at least one area can be fulfilled i wouldn't feel so crappy but yea, she left me right before i started work, made me lose all motivation in life, went to work feeling like crap alr and finding out the job i joined was the wrong position... crap again! realised rival foreign n local banks paying a better salary and allowance and COMMISSION!!!~~~~
WHAT THE HELL RIGHT!!!!!! and people/friends ask me everyday why i look so upset and depressed. how am i supposed to be happy when things are going all over the place other than where i want it to be. crap crap crap. alcohol has been my best buddy since 12 june 07 and it sets to be my greatest confidante until, at least, i find true enlightenment... where is my enlightenment???
CFA exams here i come! if i fail this time i think i should so kill myself already. Cheong ah~~~
Update: 1) Jiemei/part-time 1st XX/buddy/sister left uob to join SCB. will really really miss her tonz. look forward to seeing her success and hopefully share mine with her too... 2) Beer suddenly tastes sweet 3) Ex-gf getting married on 6 oct @ goodwood. kaoz...marry swiss man can.. i oso wanna marry swiss woman... though russian or swedish ladies might be better...hmmmm :P 4) offered a new position... shld i take up? Will be in same bldg as her though... just cun run away from her 5) Influx of friends. realised hopw sweet colleagues can be. they're not just work mates. they're actually friends 6) St James is pure FUN 7) Found out someone actually liked me for 6-7 years... wow... simply amazing. i do like her too *ponders* 8) China ppl can be our friends too 9) I do very much want a car 10) HTC TyTn 2 phone is my next must have!!!
