2mths 2days

can't take my mind off you...
i just can't take my mind off you
no matter how hard i try to do
regardless whatever i could do for you
i just can't take my mind off you...

love, i've been waiting so long
can't you hear that i've been calling
a lil love is all i ask back in return...
i got a heart without a home
i got a home without my love
love, i'm still waiting for as long...

Same shit, different day

Same shit different day… I wonder if hypnotism works seriously….
Honestly, last week I could smile and all…suddenly this week I cannot smile again… it’s really so tiring going through this feeling over and over again…how I wish if I could end all this feeling as well… but yet…I keep choosing to fall back into the abandoned hole…

CANCER WOMAN

CANCER WOMAN


When she is in love, she will act both ways. First, Shy and polite trembling
to be near you. Second, Attach to you like glue and trying to be with you
all the times. She will try to go home with you after work, or have every
lunch with you. It is O.K. if you like her too, but if is is not the case,
you will feel very uncomfortable.

She hates to be talked about or gossiped by someone else. If she knows she
will be very hurt. In nature she is a shy type, except she has been
influenced by some other Zodiac. She is not a brave or daring type, so if
you like her then you better be the one who start first. She will not accept
her true feeling, so if you like here you better tell her first.

She is like a musical note always change in tunes, so one minute she can be
funny and cheerful, and one minute she can be sad and depress. Other people
may th ink of her as "Over-acting", or "Over-reacting".

When she is depress, she will go out and look for things to make it up. She
loves money, and thinks of having "Money" as "happy", not as "God". She will
not look down at you if you do not have a lot of money, but she will help
you make money, save money. She is not an extravagant person and sometimes
will tell you not to buy her expensive and not useful gift.

She is the type who enjoy a long and quiet walk. Cancer woman also
influenced by the "moon", so under the moon light she will be fascinating
woman.

She has a constant fear for many things. She fear of not being smart enough,
not pretty enough. Even if she is not fat, she will not be satisfy. Assuring
her of her look would help, because she can change mood 4 times a day.

She is not stingy, but you will not surprise if you see she collecting old
or broken junks. She sees that everything are useful to her. S he will find a
way to re-use it again some day. She is not a jealous type,but possessive.

The best part of her is that she will sacrifice everything for her love one
with no limit. Don't leave her in times of troubles, she will never forget
it. She is not a weak type, even she looks like one, Example if you argue
with her, she might cry her heart out. Once you left, she will wipe her
tears and start clean up her apartment normally.

She is a very careful mother and will look after her kids every steps of the
way. If she is a mother of your children, you are at ease, but if she is
your mother in law, you are in pain. Not to worry, this type of mother in
law will not let her own daughter being an "Old mate".

She could be moody and argue with you in many little things like many women,
but she always wait and want to take care of you. If you argue with her and
disappear a few days, she will be waiting for you, but no t for long O.K.
This kind of testing is risky, try not to do it.

The Cancer woman need 2 things to be happy which are "Work" and "Love". She
can be live in a dusty house, but she can not live in that same house with
no Love.

ARIES MAN

ARIES MAN

He always let other people walk in front of him, but he will get there
first. He is a very careful guy and small obstacles won't make him fall
easily even he thinks life is a very serious matter. He is as romantic as
any other Zodiac. He could look gentle, but inside he is as strong as steel.
Once he determine to do something, he is serious about doing it well. He
will keep any pressure or insult deep down inside without showing emotion.
You will never see his emotion of burden or disappointment and always wonder
what he thinks or feels. He will well kept his feeling.

You will never see a guy in this Zodiac involving in other people business.
He always concern with his own business. Sometimes he can be talkative, but
he will never give anyone advice if he has not been asked. If you ask for
advice, he will certainly give you one. He respects elderly and senior, so
you will see he is the type who visit his parents steadily or often.

He is a slightly shy but also a stubborn person. He will find many ways to
make you happy when you are with him, till you realize he is the important
person for you. Once he is in the "Power Position", he will use his power
gently. He is a good leader and "Gentleness" is one of his effective method
for exploiting his power. It is although he is borne to be a leader. He
never hide his ambition, and he is a workaholic. he will not take any
position that he has no control. He will work very hard to reach his goal
and satisfaction.

Compliment from his boss or superior are never enough for him, he want his
deserved reward. His deep insecurity make him reach and collecting valuable
things, and this you may think he is stingy. Actually he could easily
spending money to buy things, traveling or pay for things that makes him
happy and he think necessary for his need. He care what other people think
of him and want to get good comments or compliments.

Outside he looks like stone and steel, but inside he is a fragile person. He
will hide and cover up weak emotion and his sadness in order to maintain and
keep up his "Image". One method of cover up you could easily notice is
suddenly if he is quiet, cold, or act very strong or very secure. Often, he
feels insecure, even he is serious about his life and his own surrounding.

This is the man who never hurry to get marry, so hardly sit back and regret
about his marriage later. If he gets marry, he need to be very certain and
very sure. It will take a long time for such decision, so if you tell him
that you are "breaking up" , you better forget him for good because he will
never coming back.

He always keep his promise. If he said he will meet you in your place in 2
hours then he will be there, unless there is a serious accident or
unavoidable things happen. He hate people who is late for date or any
appointment.

He like to think woman should be a follower and take care of family and
working is a man duty. He does not like to compete with his girl friend or
his wife at work because competition already exist with himself and other
people. He will be very proud if he can afford and care for his family. Do
not try to over power him or insult him, he can not stand it. He likes to be
in control of every things, every situations.

He like a "Classy Woman" ,if she also comes from a good family then it is a
Plus. It will make him feel proud and very ego about her status. Flashy type
of woman , forget it. He like a perfect or a nearly perfect housewife. He
tend to be possessive. He will not tell you if he is mad at you, but will
act very moody to show you instead.

He like to hear sweet word and compliment so you can get his interest that
way. If he approaches you to ask you out, do not act too stubborn or fooling
around too much. He will get tired and just disappear. He has to feel
confident when he is around you, so knowing this fact you should know what
to do, right!

If you want him, you have to make him feel like he is the most important
person for you. He likes a kind hearted woman , polite and can get along
with his family. When he feels sad, do not leave him alone, but be very
supportive. Kind words and your smile will win him over, so this strong man
will be like a chicken in your palm.

8-9 June: MOS, chu in car while i changed, watch lil chu bought for me

9 June 2007 - Happiest Day We Had in a Loooooong Time

9 June 2007. Been too long since we had this much fun. Started from Friday with a horrible night at MOS. Was in berms and they din let me in. Went back to change to jeans and got down, only to end up looking for her sis and BIG quarrel engulfed. Was it my fault again? I guess it was. and also her unwillingness to give in at all. Night ended sweet. Really heartbreakingly sweet. Why does love screw our live so much. Apparently i'm the cause of her not wanting to be in a relationship anymore... *sighz* So yea sat started late with us both tired and lazy. Had a good arvo session and headed out for dinner & movies... Went to Purvis Street and has Thai food in this wonderful place called "FIRST THAI". Pricing was okay for thai food and servings were huge. the ice tea lil chu had was fantabulous!!!
(Got into a hit and run case on that day too but case closed already)
After dinner headed to lido for movie. now what did we watch? I think it was Pirates of The Carribiean 3. Afterwhich, we ended the day and lil chu stayed over at my place again. YOOHOO!!! Oh i just love her so so much...
So why was it the happiest day for me? Well, for one, she was really really sweet to me on that day. the real her that i got to love. the girl i saw in Perth that made my heart go soft. The sweet lady who was soft spoken and always willing to help and treat a person nice and make him feel so good and loved. oh yes...that was the love she had to give. Doing things without you telling her. Being able to anticipate your next move and making up for it. The impromptu kisses on the escalators...the hugs she expelled around the corners. The voice of an angel... and yes oh yes... her patience... the willingness to listen and talk...
Yea...these were all traits i had not seen in my longest of time with her...and on this day, it all reappeared in her.. like she had been touched by an angel and I was touched by her. As i write this, the sweet memories starts flowing in my mind again and the emo me starts to miss her... but i never regretted loving her as much as i did even after what she did to me. She was worth every effort put in. if only i could have made her love me too...